Vedanakal sammanicha pranayam

enik ariyilla enta prenayam enganea paranj thudaganam ennu..oru shopil vech kandu parichayapetu adhyam nalla frndzayi erunu.avane enna ishttamanenu parayumbozhum njan no paranju.avante prenayathel enik adhyam viswasam vannilla avan kanan glamoura pinnea e pavam pidicha enna avan enganea ishtapedum ennu orthu.pinnea enik orupa sopnagal undarunu ammayea ponnupolea nokkanam,nalla oru job etc..anganea orupad sopnagal.athokea sadhikan enta prenayam oru thadasamakum ennu orthe adhyam njan avanod no para

no paranju.pinne enta ella sahacharyagalum arinjitum avan enna serious ayi snehikan thudagi.epozho njanum avanea snehichu poyi.njan ee lokathe etavum kuduthal snehicherunathe enta ammayea ayirunu karanam orupad kashtapeta amma enna padipikunnathe.pakshea avan ennod aduthondirunapol ammayeakal kuduthalayi njan avanea snehikan thudagi.msg ukalum,callu kalum anganea okea ayi njagadea prenayam neendu poyi.oru nimisham polum njagalke pirinjirikan patathayi.njagaldea prenayam 1 yr purthi ayapol ellavark
treat koduthu.avan oru penninea nokiyal polum sahekan patathayi enik karanam enik avanod prenayam allarunu frantharunu.avantea call onnu waiting ayal polum enik sahekan patila karanam avanea nashtapedumo ennu enik pediyarunu karanam agrahechathonum enik kitiyitilla.enta ah snehathea avan samshayamayi thetudharichu.oru day avan ennod oru pate padi kodukan avashyapetu athum njan clsl pokan thudaguna timil samayam poyathe knd njan odi poyi.clsl erunitum enik oru samadhanavum illarunu avan chothecha
karyam sadhich kodukan patiyillalo ennu orth.njan vayyannu kallam paranj clsl ninnum vannu avanea vilichu apol avantea call waiting.pinnea kurach kazhinj avan enna vilichu oru grl padi kodutha pate avan record cheyth enna kelpichu.avantea oru grlfrndntea nameum paranju.njan athe ketapol thakarnu poyi.enik time illanja knda avane padi kodukanjathe enik pakaram apam avan veroru grlnea vilichu.pinnea angot njagadea prenayathel villalukal veezhan thudangi.njan epol vilichalum avantea call waiting.
pinnea oru dhivasam avante frndz enna vilich paranju.ne enthina avane engana shalyam cheyunnathe avane vera oru penninea ishttamane ennu.njan hindu ane avan christanum.ennit njagal orupad snehichatharunu.avantea frndzntea vayil ninu avane veroru kochenea ishtamanenu keta nimisham thanne njan thalakarangi veenu.bodham veenapol njan orupad karanju avanea kananam ennum paranj njan hostelil ninnu padikva.apol enta frndz oke paranju eni ninak avanea venda avan ninne vendanu paranjennu
atheketapol enta chag potipokuna pole thonni.njan enta frndzntea kalupidich karanj paranju enik avan illathea jeevikan vaya ningal avanea vilich onnu samsarikan.apol avarelam paranju avantea perumatathel ninnum thanea manasilakam avane ninne vendannu eni avantea vayil ninum ket enthena vedhanikunathe ennu chothechu.pinnea sherikum narakamayirunu enta jeevitham.unilla,urakamilla oru maanasika rogiyudea avastha palathavana marikan sremichu pinne ammaye orth jeevichu.
marichathenu thulyamaya pinnea njan jevichathe.pinne avante phn switchoff.nerit kand avanod karanj paranju enik ninne piriyan vayyeanu avan athe kelkathea nadannu poyi.pinnea enta oru photo avante kayil undarunu.avan athe avantea new lovarinte kayil koduthu vitu.aval athe puchathodea enta kayil kond thannu.apol naduroadil vech njan potikaranju.ennitum njan avanea manase kond shapichella..nerchayum prarthanayumayi onnara varshamayi njan avane vendi katherikunu.verea areayum kitanjitalla.
aroke kitiyeanu paranjalum avane pakaramakila onnum.avantea new lovr snehech 2 month akum munp avanea vendanu vech poyi.athe arinjapozhum enik sankadam vannu avan vishamikunudavum ennu orthe.1 varsham kond oru ayiram janmatheakulla sneham enik thannit avan poyi.ah snehamane ennum enna vedhanipikunathe.njagadulea prenayam kand palarum asooyapetitund evida njagalke parajayam sampavichathe ennu ariyilla
avantea kalil oru mulle polum kollathe avan evida ayalum santhoshamayi erikanam ah oru agraham mathramea enikullu.ah oru prarthanayum.avane orth neeri neeri enta paditham,jeevitham ellam nashikarayi enkilum avan nannayirikanam enta kannirinte shapam avan orikalum kitaruthe.oru karyam enik urapa enta athrayum avanea snehikuna oru pennine avan orikalum kitilla.karanam enik avanod snehamallarunu mental ayirunu.ishttam kudiyitula vate..

Nashttamaya sowpnagal.. (നഷ്ടമായ സ്വപ്നങ്ങള്‍ )

Ningal oru vartha vayichille kathir mandapathil kayari vadhuvine thalli enn aa kamukanan nhan pakshe ellam ellarem ariyikanam ennund enik ......

Nhan oru pennine snehichu 6 yr... ente kude padichatha 8,9,10 9thl thonniya ishtam thurann paranjath aval plus two kazhinj nilkumbol  4 varsham manasil kond nadannu. Parajapol nhangal nalla frnds ayirunnu pathiye avlkum enne ishtamayi..... aval n***m nhan low cast... 2 varshathe pranayam jeevithamayirnnu orupad swapnangal neythu snehathoode avale nhan ponnusenum aval enne appuusenun vilichu avalude neetiyulla vili enik orupad ishtamayirunnu sneham ennathil appuram valsalyamayirunnu avalk ennod,,, orupad vishwasamayirunnu,jeevanayirunnu, msgukal anu nhangalude life orumichulla jeevitham kuttikal, ellam swapnam kandirunnu kanunnath vallapozhum mathram 2 pravashyame avalodopam irunnitullu ann swargam kanda santhoshan enik undayath... aval oru nalla kuttiyayirunnu. Manasil prathishtichath kond avale moshamayit onnum paranjitilla,cheythittilla,chinthichittupolum illa... karanam aval enteyan ente swanthamanenn manasilurapichirunnu. Pakshe ellam petten mari marinju avalk kalyanalojanakal palathum vannu 18 ennam ente keryam veetil parayan pattilla bcz cast,finance,job ellam negative veettukarude nirbhandhathin vazhangi aval engage ment nadathi vedhanyode nhanuum sammathichu karanam mariage 1,2 yr kazhije undaku apozhekum enthelum pariharam kanam enn chinthichu 2 alum.... engagement ayenkilum aval vilikumayirunnu msg ayakumayirunnu ennum phn call kudi karanam vilikan ipo rsn und wouldbek vilikunnu enna peril avalenne vilichu.. avanum vilikum avale idak vallapozhum edukum. Avan ummma chothicht aval 2 vattame koduthitu pakshe veendum prathekshakal manju 9 mnths thikayunnathn munp avale mariage fix aki aa gulfkaranod... nhanum nadakuayirunnu passport,gud job ithinoke vendi.... ellam pazhayi fix aki ennarija ann nhan avale kandu 2 perudeyum kannu nirju enkilum pokaruth enn ente vakin niranja kannumarupadi nalki aval thirinju nadannu nhan bhrandhamaya avasthayilayi 2 divasathn shesham avalude veedinaduthe ambalathile prathikshta  nhan poyi 3 days... avalidopam undayirunnu mrng 9 to evng 3:30 vare angane 3 divasam avasanam sahikanakathe avalude vakin vilakodukathe ettanod ellam parayan therumanich nhan paranju pakshe avalude prathikaranam sahukavunnathilum appuramayirunnu chathiyan,vanjakan,dhushtan entholamikeyo paranju jeevithathil ettavum verukunnath enneyan enn aa sangadam nhan theerthath  suiciden sramichitan  6 day hspitalil kidannu icuvil.. aval vilicho msg ayacho onnum arila avalum enthelum cheyth kanumo ennayirunnu pedi 10 divasathn shesham vilichu eduthilla msg ayachu rply kand nhan njetti thakarnnu appu eni enne vilikaruth msg ayakaruth enne marakanam enn. Penninte manas kallanennum ellam avar petten marakum ennum enik manasilayi pakshe akalan pattila ente kannerinte vilakondo entho veendum msg ayakalund... vili illa vallapozhum enne akattan verupikan aval palathum cheythu enikishtamillathath pakshe swayam thakarnnu nenjpidiyunna vedhanayan enn avale manasilakipikan pattilla.... mariage date aduthu bhrandhamaya avasthayil dhushilangal thudagi avalariju pinagi akalan athum karanamaki.... veendum maranam enn chinthayil ethi avalode paranju athn aval kanda pariharam appunte ponnuvayi manasukond ennum kude undakum....  avan(wouldbe) ente sharirame kittu enn nhan orupad santhoshathilayi nashtapettalum aa sneham ennum enik undakum ennorth.,, pakshe mariagn 3 days munp avalude phn off ayi enth cheyyanam ennariyathe ayi.... avasanam therumanichu nhan agrahicha veshathil aa kalyana muhurthathil avale kananam ennit marikam enn. poyi Kkalyanathn pakshe nenj thakarnnu ennod paranja oru vedhanayumillathe santhoshavathiyayi niranja chiriyode mandapathil irikunna avale kand nenj potti thalarnn vezhum enna avasthayil ethi..... petten ellamariyunna ettan chothikua fud kazhichon dheshyamo sangadamo entha thonniyenn arila.... evidunno kittiya dharythil avludem varantem aduthu chennu enne kand vilariya avlude mukath noki varanod paraju ponnu pole nokikonam 6 kollam manasil kond nadannatha enn pinne avlod paranju nannayi ne anu penn potte nayinte mole enn paranjpol niraja kannukalayirunnu enik onnum alochikunathn munp avalude mukarh koduthu onn..., nadann nengiya enne nattukar thalli karyam chothichu ellam parajapo avlk enne arila. police stationil ethichu phn call record,msg  thelivayi nalkiyath kond nhan case illathe rakshapettu thalikett kazhinjath kond pennine varan kondoyi.... nadannath 2 days munp... pakshe enne chathichu ennarinjitum ipozhum avalan ente manasil.......